I'm completely destroyed. My chest literary hurts because of this heart ache. I never intended for this to end this way. I didn't wanted us to end. I opened my blog and I saw a bunch of unpublished posts about him, they were great posts. I poured my heart out in all that writing but it's all gone now. Nothing matters anymore. There's no us anymore. This is not the way it should be. Nothing feels right. We belong together but we're so far away now, I texted him 15 minutes ago , he hasn't replied. I don't know if he's ignoring me or just asleep but it's killing me. How can I ever get used to being without him? I swear this is the worst breakup ever. We didn't want to break up, I didn't want to break up and I really hope he understands that. I hate the way it ended, I know he's hurting just as much as I am and it sucks. I want him to be happy. I would honestly take all his pain and suffer myself for both of us if I could. I've always wanted to make him happy and today I managed to destroy his heart. It sucks. I wish I didn't have to break up with him. I'm honestly about to cry myself to sleep but it doesn't matter because I've made so many people unhappy today that I probably deserve to feel the way I do.
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