Ugh

Seriously I don't even know if I'm mad, sad or worried.  Well I guess I'm all three of those...

Mad because he said he didn't or wouldn't but yet he did
Sad because seriously,  what kind of self control is that?
Worried,  well above all I'm worried because I obviously, sincerely and greatly care about him and right now I kinda wish I didn't care so much because I'm over here worried sick and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it.

He made a choice, a very stupid choice, a choice I don't approve or understand but it was his choice so oh well.