Monday, March 3, 2014

He's broken

Not very often but once in a while he lets his problems get the worst out of him. He goes on and on about how his family has made some pretty bad choices and how he hasn't had a good life so he doesn't deserve to be happy. It's hard for me to deal with all that because I feel like everything I say either makes him or breaks him. I often don't know what to do or say. On top of that, I often wonder if he feels like that every single day and hides it or if they're just mental breakdowns. I worry about him... he might not realize it but i just want him to be happy. He pushes people away from his life because he can't see how good he can be to other people, he would rather be alone than with someone that cares about him. He's broken in so many pieces and i'm afraid he will never recover because all he sees is something that's been shattered and will never be any good but all I see is something that was broken to create something better. He says he can't forget his past and where he comes from, I say that he can move on and have a better future. We often don't think alike but we sure have one thing in common: we want the other to be happy. I'm willing to learn how to make him feel better, i'm willing to be by his side but I don't think he's willing to wait for the right time for us to be together or for life to be any better. The change is in his hands but he can't see it. It's complicated.

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